It is not a falling

I climbed a wall for you once, of cobbled garden bricks,

Of ancient greens and poppy buds, and twinkling candlesticks,

Or devil's ivy maze, and I think you came with it.

I mean, it shot up right when you first appeared, or maybe just before I’d commit,

But you were there, then wall, and then my heart within your hands.

And I still couldn't say quite how it got there, but for Fate and Neverland.

So when I saw the wall I only stopped so long to choose

Not whether but where to first step so my heart wouldn’t lose

You, so I took alloyed promises and letters full of rhymes,

Tucked them deep into my chest and leaped onto the steady climb.

And as I pulled against the grain and carved against the skin,

As every breath at next plateau exhaled our level win,

To glance again into the neon lights above my goal,

Our looming wall grew greater yet, my greater part the toll.

So I would look behind to find my tandem mate’s desire,

Your shining eyes, warm palms, and I went straight back into the soaring fire.

The muddy wall grew steeper then, with every stretch I made,

The farther from the ground the more courage doubt outweighed.

Though darker every morning, ever blurrier our glow,

I knew this was my greatest test and soon you’d catch up from below.

I knew that such a feeling, flying, could never be wrong,

And then of course your light when’er I yelled, “I love you” made me strong.

So deep I knew that love was blind and trust and patience true.

So deep I knew you’d meet me at the top as long as I pushed through.

So deep the swirling fog as I lie sprawling among the roots.

So strong this drive to trace a rubble world in words and sweetest fruits.

The wall and you have vanished, all the glows and greens have grayed.

The strength I found to love in your eyes dust to wind decayed;

I fell in love, I placed on your lips your mind in your heart

Myself. All the highest hopes for both our moving parts.

Love is not a falling, love is a task. Love is put to the test.

I fell before I climbed. I climbed alone. Should I have known. Now, The Rest.